Friday, April 30, 2010

That's Me...Sabarlah Duhai Hati...='(

I have been reading this discussion group with interest for a while. Iwant to know if anyone here can direct me to web pages where I can read about AVM surgery, with specific relation to personality changes that may occur after surgery. I know that physical changes may occur after AVM surgery has been done, but I can't find any information about personality changes that may result due to the brainsurgery...and/or...the medication required after surgery is performed.

Aproximately fourteen (14) years ago,my sister had surgery for the removal of an AVM. The mass was "about thesize of a small orange,"...according to her surgeon. It was successfully removed. The only physical damage she suffered was a loss of peripheral vision...as well as visual capability to read easily. Up until her surgery she had been an avid reader, so this loss of vision was a sad for her and caused some degree of depression.However, she knew, as did her family, that her out come could have been far more severe. We were all thankful, as was she...that this was the only damage she suffered from the surgery.

That was fourteen years ago, and there have been extraordinary changes in her personality since then. Wihout dragging out all the details...Iwill simply say...that she seems to be a different person from the person she used to be. It is a dramatic change...and in some ways it is a frightening change, due to the fact that she seems to be on a downhillspiral. It is almost as if she is caught up in the desire for her own self destruction.I am in some ways familiar with the relief someone may feel after a lifethreatening circumstance. I know that after living with the horrific pain from headaches and blurred vision.....After living through the brain surgery...and after living through the spinal meningitis that followed....she had been through a frightening, painful, life threatening experience. I am aware that sometimes people who have been through such frightening events may go to drastic extremes to "live"their lives afterwards.. It creates an urgency to "live," before ones life is "snatched away".

My sister is taking a perscription of phenobarbitol...I don't know the dosage, but it has been increased through the last fourteen years. In other words it is probably a relatively strong dosage. I wonder if this drug may have had an effect on her personality. In closing...I wonder if there were intangible side effects to the brain as a result of the surgery...when combined with the increased strength of medication....that may be responsible for the drastic changes in my sister's personality. She does, indeed, seem like a different person.After growing up through childhood with her...and knowing her as well as we have known each other all these years...it is easy to see the marked change that has taken place in her. It is frightening from the aspect that...she is doing dangerous things.

p/s : itu kisah insan laen...tp...nape cam same...Ya ALLAH..aku tkt....

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